Sunday, August 3, 2008

I find it's difficult to have the same amount of compassion...

...for people who are under my care while I'm at work depending on the reason for their being there.
For example, last night I had one patient who is 10 years younger than me and very scared. She had the rotten luck of getting an infection that spread a little too much. She'd even gone to the doctor earlier in the week to try and take care of it. She was very busy, but I really wanted to make things as good for her as quickly as possible.
Then, my other patient is only a few years older than me and has now been admitted twice in one week for a drug overdose. She's been admitted mutliple times for overdoses. She is now very unresponsive and her prognosis is uncertain.
So, I have a really hard time feeling the same level of compassion. I know I ought not judge. I know I should care for everyone as Christ does.
Don't get me wrong. I take care of all my patients to the best of my ability and do what I am supposed to. However, that doesn't mean I always feel the same way towards them.

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